Guest Post! Nationally Recognized Author Dyane Leshin-Harwood!
Today I have the honor of hosting Dyane Leshin-Harwood’s story of postpartum onset of bipolar disorder. Her story is incredibly inspiring. I had tears in my eyes as I read her gutsy story! I guarantee so will you! Please join me in welcoming Dyane’s contribution to the Postpartum Support International’s 2014 Blog Hop! Here’s her story!
Thank you SO so much for giving me the chance to share this short piece.
In January I was selected by the International Bipolar Foundation staff to
be their first “Story of Hope & Recovery” for 2014. It really was an
honor and also a great way to start off the year!
My Q&A remains in the IBPF “Story of Hope and Recovery” archives, as they
select several people each year to participate. Here it is, getting a
second life thanks to you, Kathy – and once again, I appreciate you so
much for helping me take part in this awesome blogging event!
January, 2014 “Story of Hope and Recovery”
International Bipolar Foundation www.ibpf.org
Dyane Leshin-Harwood is a forty-four-year-old married mother of two young
girls. Raised in Los Angeles, Dyane grew up close to her father who played
violin in the Los Angeles Philharmonic for over twenty-five years and also
had bipolar disorder. Dyane has a B.A. degree from the University of
California at Santa Cruz in English and American Literature. She has been
a freelance writer for the past fifteen years and has interviewed such
mental health luminaries as Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison and Dr. Martha
Manning for her nationally published magazine articles. Dyane lives in
the Santa Cruz Mountains of California where she is working on her book
“Birth of a New Brain – Healing from Postpartum Bipolar Disorder” and she
blogs at www.proudlybipolar.wordpress.com.
Q: When did you first learn of your diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder?
A: I had given birth to my second daughter, Marilla, at age thirty-seven.
Immediately after her birth I became hypomanic and on top of that I also
experienced the rare condition of hypergraphia, which is extreme,
compulsive writing. Two months later I had full-blown postpartum mania
and I admitted myself for hospitalization, where I was officially
diagnosed with bipolar disorder one.
Q: Could you describe your support network, positive influences and how
you find balance and stability?
A: A few years ago I founded the DBSA Chapter (Depression and Bipolar
Support Alliance) for our county and I created a women’s support group. It
was there where I met two women with bipolar disorder who have become
close friends. I also find support online through Facebook’s miscellaneous
private bipolar groups and the Mental Health Bloggers network. BP
Magazine’s bloggers are a great resource as well. (www.bphope.com) The
International Bipolar Foundation’s Facebook page offers a newsfeed that
shares inspiring pictures and quotes. That really brightens my day! I find
balance and stability in five key ways: seeing my “team” (psychiatrist and
counselor) regularly, medication, steady exercise, writing, and of course
enough sleep! My goal this year is to improve my diet and try meditation.
Q: Who is my greatest inspiration and why?
A: My two daughters Avonlea, age 9, and Marilla, age 6. The love I feel
for them is ineffable, and their unconditional love for me makes me want
to be stable with bipolar more than anything; after all the trauma they’ve
been through (I’ve been hospitalized seven times for this illness since
Marilla was born.) I am motivated to do all I can to show them that one
can live well with a mood disorder.
Q: What is your favorite quote?
A: As a writer I can’t resist quoting my favorite author Madeleine
L’Engle. I had the unforgettable experience of working with her at a
writer’s workshop. It was impossible for me to choose just one quote, so
here are two short ones: “Our truest response to the irrationality of the
world is to paint or sing or write, for only in such response do we find
truth.” This quote is from her best known work A Wrinkle In Time: “Don’t
try to comprehend with your mind. Your minds are very limited. Use your
intuition.” Speaking of the mind, I love what author Melody Moezzi (author
of “Haldol and Hyacinths”) said in her recent webinar for the
International Bipolar Foundation. While Melody asserted she didn’t want to
glamorize bipolar, she noted, “There’s something extraordinary about a
mind that works differently.”
Q: What is your message of hope to others living with Bipolar Disorder?
A: The beautiful Peter Gabriel song “Don’t Give Up” comes to mind as I
write this. There were many times I wanted to give up. I know this will
sound like a cliché, but if you are feeling stuck and hopeless, please
reach out to others. Seek a therapist and/or psychiatrist.
My Dad always told me that by the time I was older, a cure would be found for bipolar.
Although that hasn’t happened yet, we shouldn’t rule out breakthroughs
with the tremendous amount of research happening around the world.
I was cynical about feeling hopeful regarding my recovery for such a long time,
but that has finally shifted. We can hope together for medical
advancements, and in the meantime, do all you can to ask for help so you
feel supported, not isolated. You don’t have to suffer needlessly – there
is hope for each and every one of you!
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